My first semester MBA exam was the best exam I have ever attended!!! I would like to start off with a confession. I was deeply engrossed with “myself”… that I didn’t even recognize the flaw that’s causing immense tension in my inner self. I was surprised to find that this major flaw composed of two things.
• Need to seek the approval of others in terms of appreciation and being considered
superior.
• Comparing my gifts and talents with others.
These are some of the basic things in human nature, but you would be surprised to know the effect of all these traits on your inner self and your spiritual life. There should be nothing in this world that should hinder our relationship with God. Sad to say that these things do hinder our relationship with our creator and spoil our healthy inner life.
However, the Lord is gracious enough to teach us His truths which enlighten us about our flaws IF ONLY WE ARE WILLING TO OPEN OUR HEARTS AND MINDS TO BE RECEPTIVE TO HIS VOICE. He is a gentle man! He wouldn’t interfere in the areas that we don’t allow Him. What a Blessing to allow the Spirit of our Lord to come inside of us to convict us and to sanctify us!
My exams started off on 10th of Jan 2011. I was having a troubled spirit even before a week. I realized that something is not right. The grace of my Lord showed me that I am trying to find an identity as a “brilliant student” than “His Child”. I was scared of loosing the image that people had about me (so called “brainy” girl). I wanted this image regardless of anything. Often I found myself struggling to get the best out of me and to make both ends meet with my own strength.
God expects us to live by His love and grace not by our “overconfidence” on human abilities. I failed to realize this for a very long time. Thanks be to God who begins a good work and finishes it!
When I realized my flaw and started praying about getting rid of it. God revealed more and more truths about Him. I began to hear Him more clearly than ever. I realized that His grace is all that is needed for me. There is no need for me to strive with my strengths but to depend on Him even for my smallest need. I learned to give Glory to Him in both success and failure. I lowered my self-expectations which led to a lot of emotional disturbances. I accepted myself and let the Lord work in me. I asked the Lord to teach me my subjects, give me His strength to cope with the stress, give me the memory to remember and to even reach the exam hall and write exam.
What a great peace it is to depend on Him for even our smallest need!!! He is so much more than what we expect Him to be. He prompted me about the questions that would be asked in the exam. He delivered me out of the tension and lightened the weight of my heart.
After having tasted Him like never before I have decided to follow Him even more closely. He has taught me lessons for life through this exam season!
My thought process has undergone a drastic change for my best. I am not going to be
apprehensive about my results because I know that I have learned something for life than for exams to Glorify His name. I am so excited about this new spiritual experience and to live by His anointing even when I am out in the world.
Life is a lot more than exams!!! It’s all about learning to live for His Glory by His power and strength than leaning on our own understanding.
We are more than stupids (sorry for being offensive), but the truth is this: THE ESSENCE OF LIVING IN HIS ANOINTING IS TO SEEK HIM IN ALL THAT WE DO, LEARN TO DO EVERYTHING FOR HIS GLORY, AND REALIZE HIS HAND IN ALL THAT WE DO. THEN WE NO LONGER NEED TO DEPEND ON OUR OWN “SELF” . To His name be all glory. Amen!!